Stress tracker
I'm a member of a health website through my husbands employer. This site has some interactive tools including trackers for diet, exercise and stress. So far I've not been able to log anything but the highest level of stress on the tracker. Will I ever?
As Rosanna Rosanna Dana said, "It's always sumpin'."
So lets recap what's going on:
I'm sick at least once a month (this month TWICE!) with whatever the kids or Dan pick up and bring home.
Mom's cancer has accelerated and she's probably got only a month or two left. We had to cut our visit short a couple of weeks ago because me and the kids got sick. Travelling is hard on the kids, I really can't take them to Vegas again, not to mention Dan can't burn anymore vacation so if I want to see Mom alive again I'll have to go alone, and possibly wean the kids because of it.
Dan's job situation is in flux. Looks like he'll get a good offer from a firm out of town, which means moving. Even if he stays with his current firm, we'll be moving. Lots to do to prepare for either one of those scenarios.
I should really get a PAP test done... and get the temporary crown in my mouth replaced with a permanent one, and go to a chiropractor to get rid of the numbness in my arm and my headaches. Some physical therapy for my prolapsed uterus would be helpful as well. And I'd love to get a pedicure and a massage. But I don't have childcare. I don't have the option of sick-days, vacation days etc. so I can get this stuff done. Ever since E (the sitter) got a real day job, I've had no option for taking care of these types of things.
When will the baby start walking? When can I have the option of NOT picking her up to move her from point A to point B? She's in no hurry.
When will the tot potty train? When can I stop changing the diaper of a kid big enough to change it herself? She's in no hurry.
When will both kids decide it's time to wean? Will the baby ever drink cow or soy milk in suitable quantities?
Boy I'd like to drop this extra 30 pounds of baby weight... diet and exercise? Yah, right. No energy left for me.
Insomnia... I haven't slept for more than a 4 hour continuous stretch in over 3 years.
Chronic depression - and the libido crushing meds that go along with it.
OK, now the pros.
A (somewhat) supportive spouse... there's only so much he can do while locked into a 9-5 job.
Two healthy happy kids.
A loose support system of friends. (I can bitch to them but they can't really help me out with childcare 'cause they've got their own problems with it!)
A best friend who would give her life for me and would make everything better if she wasn't also locked into a 9-5 job.
Minimal financial pressure.
It could be worse... but it could be better too.
